lonespark: Suki in Kyoshi Warrior garb with two fans (Suki)
2017-05-22 09:11 am


I find myself wishing American Gods weren't so full of disturbing violence so my kids could see it...
...or moreso that there was another show kind of like it we could watch...
Because it's so vanishingly rare to see respectful* depictions of gods, and faithful people, in the context of pagan or traditional religions.

Maybe sometimes on shows with like, cartoon frogs?
But I can't think of another example on a live-action show.
Granted I don't watch much TV...
Even the movie examples I can think of are all cartoons, largely Disney, with lots of other issues...

*I don't feel a lot of the depictions are that respectful, but somehow the way things are presented in the world has a basic honoring these things as true and meaningful. Especially the people who are depicted interacting with the gods. So far...
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2017-05-21 01:17 pm

American Gods Ep 4









(and feelz...)


In summary of this episode:

The Audrey and Laura Show is snarky complex woman character goodness.


Getting there hurt, personally.
I wanted to kill Shadow when he told her to wait.
There's no right answer.
You cannot promise to be someone in a life you can't plan.
Plus, when your true love wants to come to the underworld with you, you're supposed to say yes.

But I do like Laura, painful empathy aside.
And I like her style:
Fuck nuance. Punch enemies. Figure shit out as you go.
Luthien sang but Laura (which means something in Latin, I should look it up...) doesn't need finesse.
And she's not the god, so...

Draugr lore seems relevant here.
When you have business left to settle,
may something about you be too ornery to die.

I hope Audrey keeps doing stuff and/or we get a bunch more woman characters.
The book was quite weak on that, as I can't stop remembering.
And very especially on woman characters who do stuff together...

No Coming To America?!? Booo!!!

He's the light of all our lives, tho, Laura.
For some stuff you gotta share.
A warm light for all mankind.
Hidden away in every box and tomb and curse.

Ok but srsly the relationship issues and dialogue.

I have pretty much said the thing about living in a cardboard box a few times
To people who needed something much different from life but still kept begging me to wait
to hold it down and make it work
as if that's something you can just decide to do, to be...
And also to people who seem to have nothing to lose
but are still too connected to something old and rotten but deeply rooted...

Also I want moar scrapbooking magic.
lonespark: Cassidy from "Far Beyond the Stars" (Cassidy Yates)
2017-05-14 10:24 am

American Gods Ep3

Spoilerish if you haven't read the book and possibly a little if you have?

I feel like the show is really hitting its stride with this episode?

Me watching:

- Happy-cries at the Coming to America segment.

- Gets confused/intrigued about suns and moons and sons and...

- Has All the Feelz* at the ifrit part because it was one of my top 3 most beloved bits in the book and it was perfect

But why wasn't Mexican Jesus here already and had the border cross him?!?

I want MCU!Quill and Shadow to meet up at a bar and bond over how their dads are 100% dicks.**

But srsly all that stuff about how Jesus had to suffer for other people but u shouldn't blame his parent?!?

And, like, I have been trying to write a post about...IDK, lots of Heathen stuff and racism and The Enduring Cosmic Importance of Shadow's Mom*** but it hasn't been going very well. There is too much; I cannot sum up. I hope we get to see Shadow's mom in the show and she's as amazing as she damn well should be. Maybe that will help.

Shadow making frozen fractals... H-runes everywhere...

Wanted to post fav quotes but forgot them. Must rewatch.

**with a brief moment of "ok, but lube?!?"

**Marvel Loki and Thor could come too, I guess? A bunch of Itempas's kids?

***partly inspired/informed by this article: https://mic.com/articles/175489/american-gods-reinvents-itself-through-its-black-protagonist#.AifPqB4jg
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2017-05-04 12:13 pm

Everyone is doing it

Everyone has been talking about this post by The Oatmeal about core beliefs:


It's good, if you haven't read it go for it, probably

(CN for slavery & some implied related medical stuff maybe, briefly mentioned early on)

Books love pictures,
and data loves graphics,
and concepts and ideas love pictures and colors and characters, etc.
so anytime people do this kind of thing I'm for it.

People do it with videos, too, which is fine by me if it's captioned b/c sound + picture doesn't sync up right for my brain for most of that stuff.
(Or for lots of stuff, like, driving. Boo.)

The main thing I don't like is the title, I guess. I'm sure the author could have found stuff I wasn't going to believe, or at least didn't already know, but this wasn't it. (I did get a "Ew, ugh, I forgot about ALL the ways GW was horrible regarding slaves!" strong reaction...)

And I've also spent a lot of time on parts of the internet where people have thoughtful discussions in good faith and make friends, which of course makes it hurt more when fights get out of hand and trolls wreck shit. I mostly avoid other parts for solid mental health reasons. And a lot of my human interaction takes place online. Too much, probably, (by proportion - not too much online, but not enough offline currently...) but all of that is complicated.

And it makes a lot of sense that possible threats to our sense of self and perception of society, etc. would be so horribly dangerous. That complexity of relationships and the need to navigate them is a huge part of what makes us human and what we use language for, and maybe a lot of our cognition in general.

Kids tho. Kids are super good and amazing at learning and change. They aren't necessarily good at recognizing emotional and impulsive reactions, but they can learn and practice. So when you spend time around kids, and people learning stuff or experiencing new stuff in general, it can help remind you about that kind of listening/thinking/sharing.
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2017-04-15 01:05 am

Queer country for 90s kids?

You guys I was reading this article and I found out that Ty Herndon is gay and now I have "What Matters Most" stuck in my head...

And also I was reminded about how I used to ship Craig Morgan Dad from the "Every Friday Afternoon" video with Collin Raye Cop Dad from the "I Think About You" video and I think I wrote a ficlet about it that I believe involved someone doing a karaoke version of "Stand By Your Man?"

I was definitely working on a long original fic about a closeted singer-songwriter dude and there was unrequited pining and disgrace and drinking and awards-show shenanigans and eventually finding love with a bull rider... That was actually kind of good and I wish I knew where the paper notes from circa 2003 are now.

Same article informed me that Chely Wright was dating Brad Paisley for pretendsies and reminded me how much fun it is when Dolly Parton and Melissa Etheridge hang out and I could file a few numbers off and ship that, too...
lonespark: Cassidy from "Far Beyond the Stars" (Cassidy Yates)
2017-04-04 01:20 pm

The Neverending Quest for Peak White Nonsense


I think this is a good article in general but it's long so I haven't finished it yet but the first few paragraphs are full of hard-hitting truths that are funny as hell.

"If history has taught me anything, it’s that there’s nothing more disappointing or dangerous than a room full of white people."

Is there anything truer than that? I submit not.

We have been elevating the art of the Really Bad Idea to new heights ever since we were first invented.

(And, like, I guess you could say it could be truer if it's more specific? Christian-Capitalist-Heteronormative white people? But all of that seems redundant since Whiteness and White supremacy are inextricably bound up with all those oppressive assumptions and worldviews.)

(Also I forgot that Independence Day thing happened. So often we are breathtakingly, epicly clumsy and ludicrous in our hubristic self-assurance. On the rare occasion when it's not killing and torturing people it's plain funny. )

(When it is folks need to laugh anyway. We are ALWAYS killing people for not taking us seriously, because apparently we don't learn that means you lose forever.)

(Also I did not know that about SURJ. For some reason I thought it was like, the BLM White Folks Auxiliary, or something? I don't claim to be work but I TRY not to be a blundering fool on a regular basis. Ooops. And I think people explained it to me when, like they said not to buy signs from them but I didn't totally get it...)
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2017-04-01 04:30 pm

Job Job Job Job Job

What I need is a job.

It was THE ONLY THING I needed when I got here.
Then I needed childcare to get a job so I could keep paying for childcare, and that's kind of where I'm at now, but...

I need medicine so I can be functional enough to work.
I need community help
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2017-03-21 12:41 pm

More Names and Stuff IDK

Murrah the Slave
Murrah the Bandit
Murrah Faith, Hero of The Federation
Murrah Faith, Mage-Knight Commander
Murrah Faith, Mother of Hope
Murrah Faith, Scourge of The Federation
Capt. Faith, Sword of the Empire
Murrah the Ghost Who Has Posthumously Learned to Have Slightly More Than No Chill

Kel the Dreamer
Kellem the Wanderer
Kel Your Servant In The Name Of The Ancestors
Kellem Jerek, Mage-Knight
KJ & Ben 4ever
Kel Who Is Crying And Psychically Saying Goodbye In Your Dreams Because that Servant in the Name of the Ancestors Thing Is Totally for Life No Joke Dammit
Cmdr Jerek, Insignificant Paper-Pusher of the Empire
Kel the Broken-Hearted
Kellem Jerek, Part-Time Reluctant Step-Dad of the Federation Reborn
KJ the Reasonably Content Ghost

Benya the Orphan
Benya the Really Pale
Benya the Pilot but Marto is better so he gets the top bunk
Benya the Mage-Knight, Key to the Seal, who totally gets the top bunk now
Ben & KJ Forever and Always You Promised
Benya Who Never Even Got a Chance To Say Goodbye
Benya The Hermit With That Strange Kid Who Has Gills
Benya The Smuggler's Friend
Benya The Ghost Who Understands More Now But Is Still Very Grumpy About Many Things
Ben & KJ Forever

Adri the Swift
Adri Don't Stop Running Til You Make It To The Ship, Don't Stop No Matter What You Have to Promise
Adrian Faithlight, Last of His People
Adri & Murrah Forever, In The Name Of The Ancestors
Adrian Faithlight, First of the Mage-Knights Reborn
Adrian Faithlight, Hero of the Federation
Adrian Faithlight, Martyr and Inspiration
Adrian The Very Upset Ghost
Adrian The Proud But Slightly Confused Ghost-Dad
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2017-03-21 12:16 pm


I enjoy those ridiculous lists of suggested baby names.

I was thinking some names/titles/backstories I've come up with for characters almost fit that...


Payton, Devourer of Hotdogs

Ander The Foul Kinslayer, but you can call me Andy

Holly, Daughter of (nah, let's not talk mention your awkward crush on my dad)

Willem The Childkiller (But That Was Before The Great War When I Still Had Legs and also they were zombies and I was protecting my men and the whole thing is a lurid exaggeration anyway can we let it die already please?)
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2017-01-18 10:10 pm

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I have to say, I think many people do know how terrifying changing rooms and bathrooms can be. And hallways, too... And walking home...

It's not the same! I'm not saying that!

But a lot of cis people know what it's like to viciously bullied for something related to gender presentation. And a lot of us sort of accept or defend it as "just the way it is," or spout platitudes about being secure in yourself and unconcerned with popularity, or growing a thick skin, or waiting to grow up, or something.

It's only the way it is because people put in effort to keep it that way. We poison ourselves and we kill our friends and our children out of fear and resignation.
lonespark: Nani in swimsuit (Nani)
2017-01-17 01:39 pm

Tyrsday for Justice: MLK on indigenous humanity

"Our nation was born in genocide when it embraced the doctrine that the original American, the Indian, was an inferior race." - Martin Luther King, Jr.

It is our duty to renounce the Doctrine of Discovery
and Manifest Destiny

To destroy their every monument
To root out every trace of the contaminant

This is the work of lifetimes
Of centuries;
That's simple math...

A work of joy and hope and frith
And the vibrant future

Of life and freedom and art and community
Against violence
and confinement
and censorship
and segregation
Against fear
lonespark: Toph in Dai Li uniform (Toph)
2017-01-11 10:12 am


Quotes that are awesome and I endeavor to use whenever possible (please to add your own!)

1. "Thus far you have been adrift in the sheltered harbor of my patience." - Cobra Bubbles
(optional follow-up: "Pray that it continues...")

2. "I know what you would say, and it would sound like wisdom, but for the warning in my heart." PJmovie!Frodo

3. "There is but one [Thingie or Lord of the Thingie] and [he/zie/she/they/it/insert singular pronoun here] does not share power!" - PJmovie!Gandalf

4. "Hello, my name is [multisyllabic name.] You [did Bad Thing or Verbed My Noun], prepare to die!" - Inigo Montoya**

5. "Nassty, [noun]ses! We hatess it, Precioussss!" - Gollum*

**And now there's the Moana variant: "I am [name] of [place]. You will board my boat[/other vehicle], sail across the Great Ocean/[verb across the Great Noun], and restore the [Thing] of [Person]!"

*I quote Gollum a lot. I defnitely use "pocketses," more than "pockets," usually in the sense of "Yessss, this dress has pocketses!!! We loves them, Preciouss, we loves them so..." Nasty thingses, tasty thingses, thing what are The Preciouss... Also "Shouldn't ask us...not its business!" etc.
lonespark: Cassidy from "Far Beyond the Stars" (Cassidy Yates)
2017-01-09 12:14 pm

Silence from our "friends" would be better than this fucking bullshit




So, ok, stuff like this is going around, but what is striking me is the ableism.
People want to know how misinformed people can "function without keepers."
Liberal entertainer pundit dudes call the Fascist-in-Chief-Elect "learning disabled."
ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME YOU BACKSTABBING SO-CALLED ALLIES?!? You insult your enemies by comparing them to decent people who just want to get through the day in a society that constantly questions their right to exist?!?

The mental illness aspect I have been ranting about for a while, but I have noticed an uptick in insulting people with cognitive challenges, (which of course is neurodiversity and overlaps with mental health issues), and anyone who doesn't meet their definition of "fully independent adult."

It's so f'ed up because it's exactly the same thing Trump and the conservatives do, mocking people who ever need or seek help or support with anything!
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2017-01-02 11:39 pm

IDK WTF this is...

Poe Dameron was mostly dead once.

And he woke up Somewhere Else. A pilot's lounge beyond the end of several verse's? Something like that...

There were so many people there, happily mingling and passing through...

...and some of them had wings...

...and most of them had regrets...

But nearly all of them were friendly...

After a while Poe had to leave. Someone punched him lightly on the shoulder. "Good luck, buddy." "Be a leaf on the wind." "...so say we all."
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2016-12-20 11:57 am

Princess Skillz

Folks talking about princesses. Sometimes I think about princesses a lot, like that time I missed the exit and almost drove to Canada...

I thought Moana did a good job of showing skills she could have, and setting them up ahead of time.

It made me think of other things that showed skills princesses would be trained in... I can't remember what, tho. Another Disney movie? Narnia movies or fanfic? Brain is failing me...
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2016-12-20 11:44 am

Love and rhetoric fine; blood fine too IN MODERATION...

(aka "I do not like this Game of Royal Stools")

So I finished Meji Part II the other day.


And I liked it tho I think not as much as the first one. Some parts that weren't my favorite or just in general made me think, "This is probably what ASOIF is like?" Mostly the scheming and murdering people so your kid can be the ruler or whatever bits...

But IDK if I know people familiar with both who can speak to that?
lonespark: Nani in swimsuit (Nani)
2016-12-13 10:21 am

Tyrsday for Justice: Pitchers and cups, oxygen masks, and strength for All The Fights

The Plan involves caring for one's Self, Body, Mind and Soul, and supporting one's People in doing the same.

Both of those things are hard. They are struggles that are worthy and necessary and honorable urgent. Especially so in difficult times we know will continue for a goodly while.

My list of Things To Do:

1. Collecting and utilizing music and art that feeds my soul and connects me with my values, my gods, and my folk

2. Making the effort to show up in person to events when I can.

3. Using online communication that helps, and reconfiguring stuff that offers distractions, however worthy.

4. Making the effort to maintain connections with friends and allies who are 100% worth it, and making the effort to be 100% worth it right back or at least to make it clear to them where I stand.

5. Accruing resources when I can, and sharing as much as possible, and not getting caught up in what I worry it might say about me when I succeed or fail, because it's Not About Me at all.

These things are not going swimmingly at present, but that is a reminder of why they are important, and I am mostly in a Planning to Plan stage...

Immediately upon reviewing these I note there are Invisible Staircase problems. By which I mean, there are steps that must be taken before I would be able to implement these things or even figure out how to implement them...

Like, so, 5 is kind of the easiest, maybe, because it's so general? I have lots of privilege. That's a kind of power, and I can make efforts to use it for good. Futhermore it's a springboard to greater power and thus more opportunity to help others. More life stability, better job, etc. will help with that. And I am working on that anyway, but it helps to be able to remind myself of truly important motivations and goals.

2 is the most concrete and specific already, and I am already doing it but not nearly enough, so that is the most actionable. Imma put "Listen to inspiring music" on my Daily list in Habitica. So I will get rewards for doing it, and I already have it set up so rewards I earn for doing stuff include "song," "album" "ebook" "poster" etc... Other things I need to do to make this work include improved organization and access. My room and especially my books are not well-organized. And music is even worse. So those are related sub-goals...

I will look at the other stuff another time. Soon, hopefully...
lonespark: Toph in Dai Li uniform (Toph)
2016-11-16 11:09 am

Charity vs. help/sharing

The PTO is sending me repeated requests via email and Facebook and possibly papers in my kids' backpacks for donations to needy families for Thanksgiving. As one of the eligible families contemplating filling out the request form for the first time ever, I find this somewhat annoying. (While I was typing this I just got another forward of the same message, LOL)

They are trying to collect gift cards to grocery stores, which is a pretty good thing to give people, I think.

For Christmas, they instead take requests for clothes and toys and then fill them, which is annoying on several levels. It could be helpful with clothes, and I might do that... They have a space to fill in children's genders rather than just their toy preferences and clothing sizes/needs. And of course they give you two options, which are actually sexes... I'm sure you don't have to fill out that part, but it's still bullshit. (And it doesn't even say it's optional, so people probably do feel like they have to fill it out.)

They may also do gift cards to Target or whatever, which would be awesomely much better... I know some places do that...

What I really think they should do is give gift cards or credit or whatever for things actually related to school. So far, based on personal experience, I recommend

1. Books at the book fair.

(Book fair is today. This is one of the few things I am still borrowing from my parents for, because there is nothing like books and book-related stuff you yourself chose, without judgement or restriction. New books! Hardcover books! Coloring books! Posters! Fancy journals! Fancy pens! Things that look like books but really hide secret spy equipment! Books that, if you drop them in the toilet or spill hot chocolate on them, or trade them or sell them or rip them or break the spines or dog-ear your favorite pages, no outside authorities will bring their judgement/disappointment/consequences to bear on you...)

2. School supplies for the beginning of the year.

(That's a huge, concentrated expense! And there are all these charities you can get hooked up with that get you stuff, but it's never based on the list of required stuff from your particular school or even this town's district.)

3. Actual fucking help with childcare.

(So far AFAIK (after 5+ years of asking) there is NO sliding scale or scholarships for the school system's official after-school programming, which includes holidays, vacations, summer and now I think the many, many half-days that creep up. It is possible to get scholarships, at least for the summer, from charities and from the town's Emergency Fund*, which is run thru/with the Red Cross in some convoluted way that involve me having to go to an office in a church to request it.)
(There is a morning program but the kids can't bring their own food let alone have the free breakfast some qualify for but the school doesn't serve, and they charge for it and like a million things you can get that fee waived but no one communicates about this; you're supposed to just know...)

*I originally typed Emergency Funk, which is definitely a thing, I think...
lonespark: Toph in Dai Li uniform (Toph)
2016-11-03 12:29 pm

Thor Smash Poison Snake, Stand With Standing Rock


This is what our Powers That Be are declaring war to protect.
This is what pipelines DO.
This is what petroleum storage and transport does.
(And extraction even moreso...)

I worked with it, and so did and so do lots of other people who do their best safeguard health and the environment...
But it's only ever harm reduction.
If it was worth it once, it cannot be now.

Why are we letting them fight the future?
They are doing it in our names.
We have to stop them.
lonespark: Cassidy from "Far Beyond the Stars" (Cassidy Yates)
2016-11-01 09:24 am

Tyrsday for Justice - Segregation and related White Supremacist Nonsense

(Watching this Jon Oliver segment: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o8yiYCHMAlM&feature=share Good so far. I have had to stop halfway thru to scream...)

Look, White people. There have been too many centuries of us being represented by the very worst jackasses among us. Race Traitoring is hard, but how else can we have a sliver of self-respect?

And I think I am probably not the only one who reads about (dudes, usually) who remember growing up in "safe" "good" neighborhoods and wants to know exactly what was good about it.

Safe only means safe for straight cis white dudes.
Except not them, unless they're very rich.
Except not them, if they're disabled or neurodivergent.
Except not them if they have feelings in public. If they're not gender- and culture-conforming in exactly the right way every minute, which is impossible...
Except not them if they care about anyone else. Which of course they do because they're people.
Participation in an evil system destroys people and souls and potential and creativity and so many beautiful futures and exciting, fun journeys to get there.

If you're near the top it might not kill you.
It might not hurt you quite as much as others.
It might not make you hate yourself and all the things you are in quite the same ways.
But that's still nothing like winning.